i have to do my best...

lately, i feel that i have been letting other people down. i really need a good head start as soon as possible!

right now, i'm looking for a job. my parents are expecting me to find one after 5 years and a half of college. i hope i can find a decent job as soon as possible, naguguilty na rin kasi ako na nagiging pabigat lang ako sa kanila. kahit paano, gusto ko rin namang makatulong sa kanila. sabi nga ni mommy, marami na siyang nararamdamang sakit ng katawan (pati si dad, dumadaing na rin daw). gusto ko lang mapanatag ang kalooban nila na kaya ko na ang aking sarili

but before i focus on looking for a job, i still have to finish my thesis!!! sana matapos ko na ito by december. sana maging mabait sa akin ang thesis adviser ko! i really have to go on full throttle on my acad mode...alam ko namang kaya ko eh! like i said, i just need a good head start...

and then there is jean...i feel like i really letting her down...big time! palagi na lang siyang nagtatampo sa akin. sinusubukan ko naman talagang pasayahin siya palagi pero minsan (or malimit) sablay talaga ako sa kanya...ayoko ng nakikitang upset siya or malungkot dahil sa akin...ang bigat kasi ng pakiramdam...

God! give me the strength and the wisdom para magawa ko lahat ng ito...and i promise...

I WILL DO MY BEST!!!