happy 100th day to us :)

sana mabasa mo ung text sa picture! :)

thank you princess for this...*hugs*

a poem for my birthday

i know i should be happy today
i know it's my day
happy greetings and wishes
it's all what they say
but there is something missing
for my heart know what is true
this day wont be special without "YOU"

so what kung magiging mahirap ang application?

Sabi kasi nila, magiging mahirap daw ang application process.
Ang hindi nila alam, ang mahirap ay hindi imposible...at ang pinaghirapan mas minamahal.

We can always give you the boring stuff why you should join:

The organization will be your training ground for the future where you can experience handling projects and various events. It gives you a look into the career you may want to take or a peek into the real world we will all enter eventually.

But what you don't know is that...

*Kahit sino ka pa, welcome ka!

*We always strives for excellence! Every project, may it be small or big, is delivered 101%. Siksik, liglig at umaapaw! and take note...palaging succesful ang activities namin so far!

*Here, everyone can be your friend!

*It doesn't just give you mere laughter but joy. A sense of fulfillment kung tawagin.




















maaring magiging mahirap ang application process...but we will make sure that it will be...

*a learning experience

*memorable

*FUN! :)

i need to...

i need to be optimistic...so i wont be stuck in this dead end

i need to be strong...so i can support and defend the people who are important to me

i need to be resourceful...so i can maximize everything i have

i need to be assertive...so my aspirations are not compromised

i need to be understanding...so that i wont be insensitive to the people around me

i need to go back...go back to where i came from and start building again

but beyond this needs...i hope "i can"

i have to do my best...

lately, i feel that i have been letting other people down. i really need a good head start as soon as possible!

right now, i'm looking for a job. my parents are expecting me to find one after 5 years and a half of college. i hope i can find a decent job as soon as possible, naguguilty na rin kasi ako na nagiging pabigat lang ako sa kanila. kahit paano, gusto ko rin namang makatulong sa kanila. sabi nga ni mommy, marami na siyang nararamdamang sakit ng katawan (pati si dad, dumadaing na rin daw). gusto ko lang mapanatag ang kalooban nila na kaya ko na ang aking sarili

but before i focus on looking for a job, i still have to finish my thesis!!! sana matapos ko na ito by december. sana maging mabait sa akin ang thesis adviser ko! i really have to go on full throttle on my acad mode...alam ko namang kaya ko eh! like i said, i just need a good head start...

and then there is jean...i feel like i really letting her down...big time! palagi na lang siyang nagtatampo sa akin. sinusubukan ko naman talagang pasayahin siya palagi pero minsan (or malimit) sablay talaga ako sa kanya...ayoko ng nakikitang upset siya or malungkot dahil sa akin...ang bigat kasi ng pakiramdam...

God! give me the strength and the wisdom para magawa ko lahat ng ito...and i promise...

I WILL DO MY BEST!!!

what is right vs. what you like

its a constant battle between doing something you like against doing what is right

-dan dorado

intro
palagi ko ginagamit ang katagang ito noong high school...kapag may humihingi ng payo sa akin. bilang isang ulirang peer counselor, kailangan naming pakinggan ang mga problema ng mga kapwa namin estudyante. hindi kasi lahat ng estudyante ay pumupunta sa guidance office. kapag di namin kaya ung problema na ibinahagi sa amin, then saka namin sila irerefer sa guidance counselor ng school

what is right...

ano ba ang tama?
normally, ito ung mga socially accepted na "tama"
bawal magnakaw, pumatay, magsinungaling etc. (parang ten commandments lang ah hahaha!!!) pero minsan gray area din kung ano ang tama di ba?

a utilitarian would say na as long as walang nagiging worse off (including yourself) sa actions mo or magbebenefit ang mas nakakarami, then you are not doing anything bad. may point! pero minsan kasi...hindi tayo masaya kapag ginawa natin ung tama...kasi minsan, may kailangan tayong isacrifice "for the benefit of other people". worse off ka, better off sila *plural noted* then tama ung gagawin/ginagawa mo...

so masaya ka ba?

fulfilled oo...pero masaya? minsan hindi...someone argued me before na since ginawa mo ung tama, magiging masaya ka din in the long run...ewan ko...di pa rin ako convince...

napakalimiting kasi kapag may kailangan kang sundin di ba? bawal ito..bawal ganyan..dapat ganito etc...KASI UN UNG TAMA!!!

what you like...

dito ako masaya...ayoko lang ng may regret...walang pakialaman...nagpapakatotoo lang

familliar lines?well...ito ang hirit ng mga taong ginagawa kung ano ang gusto nila. tama naman! as long as wala silang nasasagasaan or naaapakan then wala din silang ginagawang mali...pero to what extent can you do what you like?

minsan kasi nagiging insensitive ang ibang tao kapag ginagawa na nila ung gusto nila...insensitive to the point na meron na palang ibang taong naaapektuhan...

then meron pang mga hihirit ng "ito kasi ang gusto ko...ito ang nararamdaman ko...sana maintindihan ninyo..."

may point! pero paano nga kapag naaapektuhan na ang ibang tao dahil patuloy mong ginagawa ang gusto mo? will you be insensitive? will you be persistent? at what expense?

ako?

im more of the "doing what i like" type. i am guilty of using those lines i mentioned above. aminado ako na minsan mali ung mga ginagawa ko for the sake na masunod ung gusto ko...but i take responsibility!

i am fully aware sa mga ginagawa ko! if ginawa ko ung tama, alam kong hindi ko magiging regret un in the future...if ginawa ko ung gusto ko, alam kong i can take full responsibility of the consequences...

ikaw? alin ung pipiliin mo?

on relationships

if it's not meant to be then it's not meant to be...

though i may believe that in a way… i believe there are still two most probable reasons why things don't work out between people… it's either HE decided that things will not work out… or SHE decided that things will not work out… i think it's really that simple...

loving someone and having a relationship with someone is of a totally different nature… you may love countless people… you may still love the persons you had relationships in the past… you may still even love the people who make you feel you don't exist… but… having a relationship requires not just love but also a mutual personal decision to be with this someone…

marriage, i think is the highest form of relationship you can have with someone… and it requires a decision by two souls to stick to it no matter what… some say it's hard… some fear it… some detest it because of the thought that they may lose their independence… but i believe, it is more of like having that someone you can be with… someone you can count on… someone who would not mind spending every moment of your lives together… going through all those happy… sad… and special moments that, you know, you will always treasure...

if it's not meant to be then it's not meant to be… not quite… for i think people who said that never really tried…

feelings

we have no control of what we feel or how should we feel about something...it is an immanent force within us that is very hard to ignore...but what we do about that feeling is up to us...its a choice...

but what do you do when you have a feeling and there is no appropriate reaction to compliment it?do you ignore it? you just let it pass?let it die?

me?

i divert the feeling...i divert it in to something/somewhere that is manageable...where i can do something about it...

but the diversion is whats killing me...now...

maybe its time to put everything in to perspective... notice the things i was ignoring...save some sanity for myself...accept the inevitable and take responsibility to face the consequences...

because it was my choice...

but what's hard about this is...

the feeling of "i wish i can..."

gaano mo ba kagusto?

"kapag gusto, madaming paraan
kapag ayaw maraming dahilan"

hindi ko alam kung ilang beses ko na itong nasabi o naisulat sa blog. sobrang applicable kasi sa lahat ng sitwasyon nitong quote na ito. kahit yung paborito kong anime na ONE PIECE, ito ang tema

"If I were to die pursuing my dream...then that's that. atleast i tried"
-Luffy

minsan, ito ang ginagawa kong sukatan para malaman ko kung gaano ba talaga kagusto ng isang tao ang ginagawa niya. halimbawa, kung ako, hindi ko magawang umabsent sa isang subject, kahit na 7 pa ito ng umaga, kahit na sobrang hirap akong gumising at maligo, then masasabi ko na interesado talaga ako sa subject na yun. pero kung halimbawa, may nagyaya sa akin na umatend ng ganitong event, kahit na may oras naman ako, minsan nagdadahilan ako dahil hindi naman talaga ako ganun kainteresado.

noong nasa theater pa ako, palagi ko din ito naririnig sa direktor namin. ung iba kasing cast palaging late o kaya naman hindi talaga umaatend ng rehersals namin. in the end, tinatanggal sila sa production...ang dami kasi nilang dahilan...

"if you are pre-occupied with something else and you cant give your 100% for this production, then we are better off without you. no one here is indispensable..." -sir kit

minsan naiisip ko, ung mga taong nagdadahilan na "eh kasi wala talaga akong oras", "eh kasi busy talaga ako","eh kasi wala talaga akong maisip na paraan" "eh kasi..." ay mga taong ayaw lang talaga, hindi ko sinasabi na hindi talaga sila busy o wala talaga sila maisip but life is not a yes or no question. hindi lang dalawa ang choice natin. malaki ang gray area. you can achieve 1 end by using a thousand means. its really a matter of priority...kung alin ba talaga ang mas gusto mo...at dahil nagdahilan ka...hindi yun ang pinakagusto mo at that moment...

a friend from high school once told me na mali daw ung song na "i did my best, but i guess my best wasn't good enough" kasi doing your best means not giving up...and at some level, naniniwala ako dito...sumuko ka, nagdahilan ka, talo ka, hindi mo yun ganun kagusto...wag ka na magdahilan hahahaha!!! c;

ikaw? gaano mo kagusto ang ginagawa mo?

camping

sa sobrang pagod sa pag-akyat ng bundok, ang daming pumasok sa isip ko.

hindi pala ganun kadali umakyat ng bundok hahaha!!! nung naabot ng Phil Mountaineering team and tuktok ng everest, naisip ko na hindi naman siguro ganun kahirap ung ginawa nila, nalamigan lang sila dun for a few days but climbing a mountain is not that a big deal...

i stand corrected!

climbing a mountain is a test of who you really are. it measures your strength (physical and mental). sabi nga ni sir dizer, we will separate the boys and girls from the men and women...kahit nanginginig na ung binti mo sa pagod, you have to motivate yourself just to reach the summit!

ilan sa mga naging realization ko:

the trail



isang trail lang ang ginamit ng buong class pero iba-iba ang diskarte namin sa pagtahak nito. merong sa bato lang umaapak, merong ayaw ng walang hinahawakan, may mas piniling gumapang kesa madulas

R: ang mga diskarte natin sa buhay ay repleksyon kung sino tayo


the gears

dahil naiwan ko ung boots na suot ko araw-araw sa laguna, kailangan kong bumili ng bagong boots para sa camping. meron naman akong rubber shoes sa boarding house pero for some reason, ayoko siyang suotin sa hiking namin. and it pays off. never akong nadulas sa trail specially nung pababa.

pinagdala din kami ng kapote dahil baka daw umulan pero thank God dahil maganda ang panahon nung mga time na yun. sa totoong climb, dapat kumpleto ka sa gears dahil hindi mo alam ang pagdadaanan ninyo sa climb

R: mag-aral ng mabuti and equipped yourself with knowledge that can be useful in the future. you dont know...things that you read today can be helpful in the future


the rocks



sa climb namin sa zambales, pahirap ung mga bato sa pag-akyat. pwede naman kasing inclined plane. naapreciate ko ung mga bato nung pababa na kami, halos bato lang ung tinutungtungan ko para hindi ako magdiredirekso pababa.

R: madaming bato na magpapahirap ng akyat natin sa bundok ng buhay pero itong mga batong ito na tinatawag nating pagsubok ang siyang aalalay sa atin para di tayo tuluyang mahulog pababa to the point na di na uli tayo makakaakyat pa. we call it "experiences"

the people



sila ang team toge (team together daw *corny*) sila ung ang kasama ko sa 1st climb, sayang at wala kaming group pic nung 2nd climb. on the way marami kaming nakasalubong. mga paakyat pa lang, mga pababa na, mga locals (nagbebenta sila ng halo-halo at softdrinks sa taas ng bundok hahaha!)

R: if you feel that you're life is miserable because of problems. think again! there are people who might be experiencing the same, people who already made it, people who are stuck. and its up to you kung kanino ka sasama at paano sila pakikisamahan basta at the end of the day, your focus will still be the...


the summit



the best part of the climb, personally, kahit na pagod na ako, nung nakita ko ung summit, di ko napigilang tumakbo, ewan, bast lahat kami napatakbo, may napaluha pa nga. after all the hardship, nakuha din namin ung goal namin!!! it was very fulfilling and it made all the sacrifices worthwhile

R: do not lose focus on your goal, itaya mo dito ang buhay mo para makuha ito, if hindi mo feel na ibigay ang lahat para sa isang bagay na iyon, maybe you dont really want it that badly... (inspired by luffy hahaha!!!) because once you get there, you can look back and assess kung sino ka talaga. also it will be your stepping stone in climbing a new mountains c;

its not that i dont know these stuff, its just that the experience made me remember these things about life c;

saw this on todays PDI, an article by Margie David Collins titled "How do you go the distance?". i thought this will be a good supplement for this blog c;

1. Educational deficit works imperceptibly throughout our lifetime: There will always be people cleverer than us. Education doesn’t end with graduation. It’s not a destination, but a process of learning, all the time. We have more information these days, but less knowledge.

Arm yourself with the tools of a well-explored life—books, philosophy, newspapers, conversation. Go back to school, if you must; opt for engineering, the sciences, pure maths! Equip yourself with useful skills. Cultivate a habit of mind and thinking; learn for success as well as for pleasure.

2. A man’s ambition must be so small to write his name on a privy wall, goes the English proverb. A large and consuming ambition is an excellent thing, like a fire that guides you out of the darkness into the light. Have ambition, as if your life depended on it. Let your reach exceed your grasp. One day it will be a pleasure to read of Filipino particle physicists, Nobel laureates or Olympic superstars.

3. We’re mere specks in the universe; know your self—your strengths, weaknesses, hopes, dreams. Punctuate the grammar of your life with charm, humor, curiosity about the world, interest in others.

4. Embrace hard work—if it’s worth having, it won’t come easy. Don’t let your nerve collapse easily. Take responsibility of your life. Summon up the blood, stiffen the sinew and let spine click firm. “Work is about a daily search for meaning as well as daily bread,” wrote Studs Terkel. “About recognition as well as cash, astonishment rather than torpor.”

5. Have pride in yourself, your achievements and striving. No one knows the tightrope you have walked, how close to the wind you ran to get this far.

6. Your parents should have given you: Roots—so you know where you came from and where to come home at the end of your journey. Wings—so you can fly away from the nest, soar and make your mark upon the world.

7. We can’t buy charisma and we’ll never be perfect, so we work hard to improve ourselves—our speech; the way we behave, extending exquisite courtesy and respect to others; the way we conduct ourselves, in the Confucian way, with the same prudence and honesty we go about our lives, as if we’re being watched by 10 pairs of eyes and pointed at by 10 fingers.

8. Sometimes you will fail and fall off your cushy perch. Pick yourself off the floor, learn from valuable mistakes and move on. The higher the monkey climbs the tree, the more of his nether regions are exposed. Remember Kipling—If you can meet with triumph and disaster and treat those two impostors just the same.

9. Have a life strategy and make your career one exciting enterprise. Market yourself unashamedly. Make new friends, but keep old ones; form long-term alliances; keep enemies close to your heart and opponents on your side. Know the secrets of their hearts; it’s better to have the camels inside your tent pissing out than outside pissing in.

10. It’s an adventure! Be alert to threats, but fear nothing and no one. Money is life’s report card, but not the only one. You have a rightful place in this world, live it.

Godspeed!

lomography

as early as kindergarten, i already knew that im not good at drawing! it was frustrating for me seeing my classmates drawing their favorite cartoon character while all i can produce is a hideous stick drawing (you'll know that i'm drawing son gouku because of the hair hahaha!!!)

i used to give my teacher in "art appreciation" a hard time because i failed to submit my plates on time. note sa blackboard:

INCOMPLETE PLATES

Dorado 1, 2, 3, 5, 6

i really have no idea how i passed that subject ;p

then, i joined the school paper and since writing is also one of my frustration (see my stalker's confession) i applied to whats left...photojournalism.

at the start i really had no idea what to do. to my surprise, my pictures came up pretty good to the point that i was confident to compete. it was an amazing feeling to win using only a kb10 against slrs and digital cameras *nyahahahaha* but the best part of taking pictures is that it took away my frustration in drawing. the world is a picture already drawn...you just have to pick which drawing to take.

i remember i used to take a foldable stool every time i take pictures to make sure i have something to stand on every time i need an angle from the top. i (we) used to lay down on the streets, climb trees, ask permission to enter residential building to get that angle you want. it was pure, hardcore photography!!!

but then...

i was introduce to "real" photography (i joined this one major photography contest) that have these rules and parameters. do this!!! do that!!! its overexpose etc. it took away the fun for me ;c

not to mention digital photography where you take a picture and then enhance it later on. i feel like im cheating my picture...my drawing...i always believe that you don't need to enhance a picture (using softwares). if you are not contented, take a better shot!!!

recently i was introduce to this group of lomographers (lomomanila) and i really enjoyed their pictures. it brought back all my fun memories with my kb10.

Lomography revolves around a simple rule: Relax, just shoot. The pictures are always yours. You give your personal touch to each photo. Colors don’t need to be realistic. You can play with colors and end up with a photo that moves you. You don't have to bring to many equipments, just one camera is enough. All you need is a film camera, not necessarily a LOMO. Even an Instamatic will do.

You know better than i

back in high school, many of my classmates believed that i would be a priest. i too for sometime believed that this was my calling. many are called but few are chosen they say so i guess im not one of the chosen one

as of this moment, i consider myself as an agnostic theist. anyway

while digging up my old mp3s, i stumbled upon this song, BETTER THAN I. it came from a an animated movie (Joseph, King of Dreams). i used this song sa mga youth camp namin (talk no. 1 God's Plans). upon listening again to this song, madami ako narealize...

this song is only applicable sa mga taong may FAITH!

sana makatulong ang kantang ito sa inyong hindi alam ang gagawin as of this moment

I thought I did what's right
I thought I had the answers
I thought I choose the surest road
But that road brought me here

So I put up a fight
And told You how to help me
Now just when I have given up
The truth is coming clear

Chorus
You know better than I
You know the way
I've let go, the need to know why
For You know better than I

If this has been a test
I cannot see the reason
But maybe knowing I don't know
Is part of getting through

I try to do what's best
And faith has made it easy
To see the best thing I can do
Is put my trust in You

Chorus

I saw one cloud and thought it was a sky
I saw one bird and thought that I could follow
But it was You who taught that bird to fly
If I let You reach me
Will You teach me

You know better than I
You know the way
I've let go, the need to know why
I take what answer, You supply
For You know better than I

bawal ang assuming

Hindi dahil kinaibigan ka, liligawan ka na. Not every guy who befriends you has an ulterior motive. There is a reason why he befriended you, but don't automatically assume that it's because he wants to be your so-called boyfriend. If this will be the principle you'll follow every time someone asks you to be his friend, you're gonna miss a great deal from the friendship.

Hindi dahil mabait sa iyo, nililigawan ka na. There are people who are naturally sweet and kind. There are people who are innately good and no matter how wicked you seem, they just find it so easy to be kind to you. It doesn't mean he is courting you. Don't put yourself through unnecessary stress trying to figure out if he's courting you or not. Because I think if he is, you won't have to guess, you'll know and you'll be very certain about it.

Hindi dahil he talks to you a lot, he loves you na. You don't befriend a person if you absolutely
abhor him, right? Chances are you make sense when he talks to you, or you're probably very
patient listening to him. The two of you probably connect on some level but why does it always have to be assumed to be romantic? Being two intelligent, mature human beings, you need to accept that it's nice to share a cup of coffee over a stimulating conversation, and that you don't have to automatically put romantic connotation to it. Relieve yourself of the pressure. It's just coffee and a shared interest.



Hindi dahil cute ang friend mo, crush/love mo na siya. "lakas amats mo na for repapips!" maybe you are nearsighted but not blind. You can still appreciate God's creation! However, there will always be weird things, crazy things, stupid things that will keep you, believe me, from having a crush on him. First of all, you'd know his history with women, enough to judge what's good for you. Second, don't you just hate it when that guy who's absolutely always put together, who looks intelligent enough pronounces the word country as "kawntri" and the word mango as "meynggo." i mean pwede namang siyang magtagalog kapag kausap natin pero maciado siyang pa-impress...it tells a lot about him you know...


Hindi dahil you hang out with each other most of the time, you'd end up being boyfriend-
girlfriend. Self-explanatory... There are a thousand, no million different reasons why things don't always turn out that way. There is no one proven formula. For all we know, the reason why he likes hanging out with you is because he likes getting kikay tips from you. He probably plans on being kikay himself and he needs a mentor. (hahaha!!! c kristel ang may pakana nito ;p)

a stalker's confession

sa isang di inaasahang pagkakataon, muli ko siyang nakita noong nakaraang sabado

kinilig ako...

ang labo...matapos ang ilang taon, kinikilig pa rin ako kapag nakikita ko siya

isa akong "anti-social" na bata noong nasa mababang paaralan ako. palaging nasa library, nagbabasa ng "the adventures of tintin" at "guinness book of world records". kontento na ako sa ganung estado hanggang sa nakilala ko siya

nabibilang siya sa mga matatawag kong elitista sa aming paaralan, kasapi sa ibat-ibang samahan, paborito ng mga guro at madre, palakaibigan... she was SOMEONE, i was a NO ONE.

dahil sa taglay niyang karisma, naging interesado ako sa kanya. sinubukan kong makipagkaibigan. gaya ng inaasahan, di niya ako tinggihan, she was just being nice.

simula noon, araw-araw ko siyang inaasar. wala naman kasi akong masasabi o maikwekwento sa kanya. yun lang ang aking tanging paraan para makausap siya. subalit dala na rin siguro ng mga pang-aasar ko, bigla na lang siyang umiyak. natakot ako. humingi ako ng paumanhin. baka di na niya ako kausapin. tinigilan ko ang aking mga pang-aasar. di muna kami nag-usap. subalit sa mga araw na di kami nagpansinan doon ko napagtanto..hinahanap ko na siya..may gusto na ako sa kanya...

madalas akong tumambay sa isang gusali kung saan tanaw ko siya habang kumakain ng kanyang tanghalian. nakatayo ako doon araw-araw sa loob ng kalahating oras. sa mga sandaling yaon, masaya ako. kuntento

pagtungtong ko sa mataas na paaralan, nangako ako sa aking sarili

I'LL ALSO BE A SOMEONE!!!
AND THEN...LILIGAWAN KO SIYA

sinalihan ko ang mga samahang kinabibilangan niya

drum and lyre band

dahil malaki akong tao, bass drum ang napatapat sa akin. medyo nakakahiya pero lyrist siya. bahala na. nov 22. kaarawan ko. kailangan naming tumugtog para sa parada ng mga atleta kahit malakas ang ulan. binati niya ako, matapos ang mahabang panahon, muli kaming nag-usap..sa ulan...

peer counselor

di talaga ako kasapi sa samahang ito subalit karamihan sa mga kaibigan ko ay miyembro nito kaya kahit sumasama ako sa mga pagpupulong nila, hindi halata na saling pusa lang ako. nagtaka na lamang ang aming guidance couselor kung bakit wala akong application form noong nag-aayos sila ng files. napagalitan ako subalit ayos lang. nakasama ko siya sa ilang overnight camp dahil sa samahang ito

student council

takot akong humarap sa tao subalit sa di inaasahang pagkakataon, napasama ako sa samahan ng mga istudyanteng lider. ayos na rin. isa siya sa mga opisyal ng samahan. mas lalo kaming naging malapit sa isat-isa. pinagbuti ko ang aking trabaho upang mapansin niya ako. unti-unti ng nababago ang aking pagkatao...

school newspaper

sa lahat ng gawaing pangpaaralan, pagsusulat ang pinakaayaw ko. di kasi ako magaling magsulat. subalit kailangan kong sumali...siya ang patnugot sa filipino. sinubukan ko ang photojournalism. kahit na kodak kb10 lang ang kamera ko, pinagbutihan ko upang muli ay lalo niya akong mapansin, malayo din ang narating ko. nanalo ako sa ilang patimpalak sa photojournalism...lahat ng ito...para mapansin niya...

teatro

isa lang ang nasa isip ko noong sumali ako sa teatro.

SANA MAKUHA KO ANG PANGUNAHING KARAKTER SA PALABAS AT SIYA ANG AKING MAGING KAPAREHA

marahil ay nadinig ang aking dasal dahil napunta nga sa akin ang papel ng lalaking pangunahing karakter at sa kanya ang papel bilang aking kapareha. ito na sana ang pinakamasayang araw ng buhay ko dahil bukod sa natupad ang aking hiling, kasama sa produksyon ang pag-awit ng kantang simulat-sumula pa ay inihandog ko na sa kanya (ON MY OWN). yun na ang pagkakataon na maawit ko ito sa kanya ng ng harap-harapan. subalit yun din ang dahilan kung bakit kailangang ibigay sa iba ang kanyang papel na gagampanan...di siya gaano magaling kumanta...

nanalo siya bilang pangulo ng aming student council, sa sumunod na taon, ako naman ang naging pangulo. sa mga panahong iyon, nasabi ko sa sarili ko na:

NOW, I AM SOMEONE

malaki na ang pinagbago ko. napagtanto ko na madami pala akong kayang gawin, mga talentong di ko alam na meron pala ako...lahat yun ay dahil sa kanya...

subalit gragraduate sa siya...

isang araw. nilapitan niya ako. may aaminin daw siya...sabi niya:

ALAM KO MALI ITO PERO NAIINIS AKO SAYO, PAKIRAMDAM KO KASI, KINUKUMPITENSIYA MO AKO SA LAHAT NG GINAGAWA KO KAYA SANA PATAWARIN MO AKO...

natahimik ako...

HINDI YUN GANUN...HINDI KITA KINUKUMPITENSIYA...GINAWA KO LAHAT NG IYON UPANG MAPANSIN MO AKO...UPANG MAHALIN MO DIN AKO...

ang halimaw kong roommate

normally, i would be talking about cyrus when i say "roommate" pero lumipat na po ako ng bhaus (yes, hindi na ako taga-OUR, taga area 2 na po ako) so this will be about my new roommate, he is currently taking up MA major in Voice sa UP College of Music aand has been working with the UP Concert Chorus for quite sometime now. he does not know that im writing this so itatago ko na lang siya sa pangalang "ryan"

on with the story

last night dumating yung friend niya sa bhaus namin (itatago ko siya sa pangalang josh, kalevel ni josh groban ung boses niya). MA major in Voice din daw siya ayon kay ryan. anyway, josh asked ryan if pwede siyang ipagrecord ng "go the distance" na piano accompaniment using ryan's keyboard. being a good friend, pumayag si ryan. kinabit ni josh ung laptop niya sa keyboard ni ryan at nagsimula na ang kanilang concert. the problem was basag ung pagkakarecord nila dahil masyadong complex ung software ni josh, di nila makuha ung tamang mix. dito na ko umepal

i offered my laptop and software and being desperate, pumayag sila. ginamit ko ung easy mp3 recorder ko (para sa mga nagpareformat sa akin ng laptop, alam nyo ito). nagustuhan naman nila ung quality nung record. pwede na daw pang studio.kaso may isang problema ng software ko...

nakaline-in ung keyboard ni ryan sa laptop ko so technically, hindi naririnig ni ryan ung tinutugtog niya!!!

"ok lang yan, kusa na lang lalabas sa akin" nag-ala beethoven ang halimaw kong roommate (Beethoven's hearing gradually deteriorated beginning in his twenties, yet he continued to compose masterpieces, and to conduct and perform, even after he was completely deaf. [wikipedia])

after naming matapos at mapakinggan ung record, di matanggal sa mukha ko ang ngiti sa pagkaasteeg!!!

share ko sa inyo ung recording na ginawa namin

1. ala siya piyesa nung "go the distance"
2. on the spot niya ginawa ung accompaniment
3. isang take lang kami sa recording (pero nagpractice muna siya before kami nagrecord)
4. di niya naririnig ung tinutugtog niya..

ENJOY

*hintayin nyo lang lumabas yung playbar from imeem

when you break a promise...

what do you do when you break a promise?

you say sorry?
you make amends?

but that wont do anything, right?

no matter what you do..a broken promise is a broken promise ;c
and that will be a regret that will you will carry for as long as you live...

i just broke one...and its killing me now... ;c

a count-up with my princess

and i hope that our relationship will go on and on and on...

failure

Failure doesn’t mean – You are a failure.

It means – You have not succeeded.

Failure doesn’t mean – You accomplished nothing.

It means - You have learned something.

Failure doesn’t mean – You have been a fool.

It means – You had faith.

Failure doesn’t mean – You have been disgraced.

It means – You were willing to try.

Failure doesn’t mean – You don’t have it.

It means - You have to do it in a different way.

Failure doesn’t mean – You are inferior.

It means – You are not perfect.

Failure doesn’t mean – You have wasted your life.

It means – You have a reason to start afresh.

Failure doesn’t mean – You should give up.

It means – You must try harder.

Failure doesn’t mean – You’ll never make it.

It means – It will take a little longer.

Failure doesn’t mean – God has abandoned you.

It means – God has a better way for you.

...and i am still your dear friend

i am really sad about what happened to us.

you know how much i value our friendship.
you know that i will always be there for you when you need me.
you know that i miss you..all of you.

alam ko na tampo ka pa rin sa akin ngayon
at alam ko na matatagalan pa bago mo ako mapatawad
i just want you to know that di pa rin nagbabago ang tingin ko sayo bilang isang dear friend
we may have our differences
but i know we can look past it
again...im sorry!
there are things that i really need to do out of principle
it may be hard to understand
but i hope someday you will
and i just want you to know
that i am still the "DAN" you used to know...

...AND I AM STILL YOUR DEAR FRIEND

CERY JEAN

C-an I not see your smile?

E-verytime I pass by

R-eally! I want to see

Y-our unique and simple beauty

J-ust one smile to take away

E-very cloud on this rainy day

A-nd if you still find it's hard to smile

N-ever forget I am here to make everything worthwhile

I LOVE YOU CERY JEAN!!!

who am i?

who am i you ask?
I'm just an ordinary guy
doing things that makes me happy
living a life that is so worthwhile

who am i you ask?
a responsible but rebellious son
a supportive yet passive brother
i place my family next to none

who am i you ask?
a very reliable friend
someone who will go the extra mile
to give you a helping hand

who am i you ask?
a lover who will be always true
a masochist when it comes to love
spontaneous and romantic too

so who am i you ask?
well...that will be yours to find out
so welcome to my blogsite!
and discover "who am i" all about